Breaking post

Hi..
this is my first post after about one month and sixteen days, right before start our new class, I should confess something, I believe the confession can be a start for developing... the truth is... I didn't read and practice my English lessons, I really was lazy, I tried find new words, I wanted to listen more, but I've never done them, I just was a ... boy, I am sorry, I just saw movies, movies, movies and I have done, something wrong, I am sorry, here, in my cupboard are pages that I wrote on them the new words, I've never read them, here is a red book that I've never even touched it, and I never bought newspaper and I never...
it is almost first class, I just close my eyes and nothing else. I don't know what can I do... Iranian says, he is falling in love, yeah, I am... but I think, she is no one.
OK, I decided write more here, and after that, maybe I am going to become it public,
I am sorry again and I am regretting for this one and half month to has pasted.
this is a poem that I love it very much... for just my start,

It's funny when you found your self
looking from the out side
I'm standing here but all I want
is to be over there
why did I let my self believe
miracles could happen
cause now I have to pretend
that I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
a dream when I'm not sleeping,
wish upon star, that coming true,
but every body else could tell
that I confused my feeling with the true
when there was me and you

good bye...